Dear LIfe

Dear Life:

How are you? Is it true that most of us don't have a clue how to make the most of you?

Where are you now? Do you even exsist? What's your purpose for me? Does it involve lots of money?

You know we should talk more often you and I so I can see the path I walk is to your liking.

But the more I think about it the only one who cares about me is yours truly, so tell me life how much more misery do I have to endure.... Ha ha funny life says that is up to me!

Yet is it really when we are born into to a world, a culture, a society that gives us our senses before we can think for ourselves, only few ever then realise and reverse the curse of birth and know why breath was put in their lungs.

So life at this time I will do my best, put my best foot forward and add to this world for I as an individual have something to offer much more than love much more than sperm much more than money... What I have to offer trumps all these things.... What I have to offer is the best of me! Misery may just be the price to win in life - if so my debt is paid in full. I will win. Do you hear me life?

Depression

Happiness where art thou when everything around feels like a painful 'owww'


It hurts it hurts

To spend the few pennies hurts

Even if I get temporary joy from it


It hurts to be at work and everything is so important except you


It hurts to go home to a house filled with smoke after 27 years it really friging hurts


To have no hope

Man that hurts

To cry and have to dry the tears only to continue this bullshit life

Did I say it hurts


Cliches come out to 'brighten' your day but who really gives an 'f' about what they have to say - see me depressed send on some money with the advice ...make me a better me


It hurts to be in all these routines

It hurts when friends drift apart and then say 'I ain't seeing you' no shit homie ...where the fuck have you been?


Still the manic depressive continues living, eating surviving and suffering.


They say at any moment you should be willing to give up who you are for who you could become, well if that's the case and I hope you're listening too God ... I am so so ready for the new me!

The Specifics of Happiness

I believe before i wrote as previous great philosophers did that happiness is a multi-dimensional trait and the only quest worthy for the sake of itself.

As such finances, social and private relationships, possessions, achievements, success etc etc all constitute happiness in totality. With one of the total missing we are not 'truly' happy.

This being said the human bellow of "I want to be happy" is at best wishful thinking.
Why? Because if we have established that happiness is multi-functional, when you view it single entity you neglect the specific ingredients that make the recipe and subsequent delightful dish.

It is often said that if you aim at nothing you are sure to hit it... (i believe this is easy to see in context of midevil times and archery) hmmn deja vu... like when you are young trying to throw paper in a water paper basket only to hit the gorund and your retort to missing the basket was well i was successful in hitting the ground. Shoot!

So let's get specific with this life, tell it exactly what we want - rather demand exactly what we want and get it! Rather than adopt vague cliches of society no doubt popular due to the vision of oppressors.

Getting to know yourself

No masturbation necessary!

I'm referring to situations where who you are hits you in the face like a ton of bricks

When all your life boils and simmers done to one irrevocable fact, no longer can you run from it ... it is right there starring you in the face... what are you going to do about it?

Find a solution that's the martial way, how can your life be on the line and you not care, and really who gives a hoot what a shrink has to say.

The only solution is as before to pull out that which lies within, the source of indomitable strength the source itself God gave to you to 'represent'

All the people in the world, all their bull shit, all their lies, all the concern that benefits you none when concern doesn't translate to action ... that's like thinking of going to work... not going and then telling the boss that it should still count for something.

Still knowledgeable people know where to go, to those who already know and even if they don't know we know that they will still help via discussion, instead of blatant frustration.

Getting to know yourself then can require a guide from time to time and the guide never, ever chooses you. You choose the guide carefully so you can better yourself and be there when others need a qualified guide for a brief period of time.

Thank you Henry

Thank you Thierry

for highlighting the dark fact that most humans aren't all that

see we all have flaws even if only on the sub consious level

I'm not mad at you yet the consequences are never going to be undone

what's done is really done.

And your saving grace may just be your character from before,

If it was another it could have been much worse yet it is you

the pleasant frenchman, not the diving Drogba or angry Emundo

Oh well time will tell if humans ever learn that humans are humans

we are all mistake making machines

What do i know

I know self belief is everything

I know money can make me happy or sad

I know I need to believe in myself more

I know that I am too soft too often

I know that their is greatness with me

I know I am timid

I know this has to go

I know I must grow

I know everything is for sale and everything possible

I know a new customer is born everyday

I know in happiness I will reside

I know I am a King

Now I know where to begin!

feeling bad

it helps no one
for you to be there so glum
wishing life had permitted a different outcome

the sadness you bear the wieght you carry
just means you contribute nothing to society
in your state of melancholy

so acknowledge and dismiss the sentiment with equal haste
time can be spent much wiser
progress can be achieved easier
so feeling bad
I done with that

Why isn't anyone happy?

Is it because we believe sadness perpetual
believe we ought to be person 'x', 'y', and 'z'
instead of person 'me'

Is it because happiness is made up of so many factors
where the absence of one makes us sad overall

Is it because we fail to accept that lack of effort is the only real failure
and that a pass or fail on a sheet of paper is nedver
a true unit of measure of the person you are

Do we look at others to much
and misinterpret them, think them happy
so that we then feel like the scum humanity?

Is happiness the greatest falacy
ahead of religion maybe
we imprison ourselves and then complain to those...
who don't hold the key.

The Incredible Hulk

David Banner doesn't stay green for long
but when he is green it is so profound
green with envy green with rage
it all comes from inside

let's extract the philosophy
I want to be green with success
green with productivity
it doesn't have to be perpetual
if it feels so sweet
and is so profound

green with greenback's
millions surrond me
true to life's duality
i will still accept them gratefully

Incredbile Hulk,
David Banner
Paul Batson
International Author

Societies True Love

There's a lot of things I want to say to you
I'm not sure we see eye to eye still maybe we do
True love I wonder about you.

Best I can see we tend to disagree
Though that is when society is around
Cause I've seen how hypocritical he can be
A smile all the while and evil tongues

So I search my soul time and time again
To find out why true love isn't true to me
And what I find is that true love is just that true.
Such that it is true for if I'm to be lonely and love truthfully then it won't disappoint me
Sad as a part of me maybe it will be true to me. I figure though like evveryone else I clamour happiness I seem to hold the truth in even higher regard.


Societies true love is happiness, my true love is truth for none of us can really grow least we be totally truthful with ourselves, and by extension those we love.

Happiness

Recently much of my thought has quieried just what is happiness, individual it may be yet my query stems from the observation that a relaxed face doesn't manifest a smile.

All to often our associations with happiness have pleasureful associations but more often than not we are not in such a state. When pleasuue comes i believe it should be enjoyed yet pleasure is not happiness just a component thereof.

True happiness then individual as it may be is the simultaneous occassion when our soul's freedom acted upon grants us enough pleasure, finances, friends and shelter for us to want nothing more and its converse to have no regrets. True happiness then must also encorporate enough knowledge to appreciate what can and cannot contribute to pure fulfilment. The action of our soul's 'sole' purpose then is essential for without its manifestation we were never really alive.

A relaxed face doesn't smile, it is just relaxed. It can be happy and relaxed, the pursuit of pleasure and smiles is not the equivalent of the pursuit of happiness. The pursuit of happiness is something which all men created equally can achieve if they concieve and believe.

The pursuit of happiness is multi-faceted for what good is it for man to inherit the world and loose his soul... just notice that 'good' connotes pleasure.

Different ways saying the same thing

Don't be overconfident, thinking no one but you has this knowledge What one man has achieved another can certainly exceed, whether it is wisdom, wealth or strength. Everyman we meet is superior to us in some way.

James Lee


To be humble to superiors is duty, to equals is courtesy, to inferiors nobleness and to all safety.


Some paths are short others long, who can say which path is right or wrong? The beauty of truth is that each path has its own song. And if you listen closely you will find where you belong. So climb your own path true and strong, but respect all other truths for your way for them could be wrong.

Dan Inosanto

The beauty of life lies not in strife but in our acceptance of our God given differences.

Paul Batson

The One or Another One

What's the difference between the one and another one?

The one cares while another one may soon disappear, the one loves while another one loves to be loved.

the one will motivate you, another one is motivated by you, the one is true and another one too cause life is just to the love in all of us.

But is the ultimate love holding on or letting go? Is the ultimate love circumstantial ... it has to be... under what circumstances then can we judge those whose circumstances we can never fully understand.

Human addictions and counterfeit afflictions masquerading as true intentions towards mutual affection when no one really knows the solution to the human condition... this is why i question the one or another one?

and the affect of another one on the one is subtraction, loneliness is now more than isolation. the price we pay for investigation is terminal, still from the same spring that fertilised the one, now fertilises another one.

The Boring Song

The boring song
The boring song
Bored all yet i still get pay
why do we need to workkk
anyway

The boring song
The boring song
won't you come and sing the boring song
how many hours to gooo
anyway

ooooooooohhhh (all together now)

it's the boring song,
the boring song
we all could care less and give and 'f' about the stress
how many hours to gooo? (it's soon time to go.)
hurray!!

The Business of it all

I don't so much like this business world.

This world of business where people become secondary to financial figures, money, profit and growth of said profit, what is the point of devaluing the spirit so that we can temporarily claim success instead of virtue?

Now i know what i must do, end all the charades ... the games we play - who would you be if you didn't have to be anybody? This is who I would be ... a thinking man who stands truth and virtue such that i am the accepting mean behind excess and ahead of deficiency.

The challenge does not scare me, no, not anymore. The challenge is my destiny the reflection of thoughts I've been thinking secretly for an eternity. There's no shame in doing that which will set you free.

I am the I am.

I am tired, I am frustrated so I free me!

Energy Life's Lesson

As a boy i would play many sports, we would get some old tennis rackets and hit a tennis ball in our version of squash.

We would hit the ball on the wall and it would bounce back. One would qucikly realise that the harder you hit the ball the harder it comes back. Energy as 'nature' would have it does your bidding. Every object can't discipate force and most seek to return it.

If this is a 'law' and holds true if we emit strong vibrations of hate then hate will return to us with just as much force, by extension if we emit love, love will return to us with just as much force.

If we remove the inanimate object that is the wall and input a live human into the equation the 'law' still holds true although this 'game' is now referred to as tennis. Yes a real life opponent can return your strong and hard shot yet he has to expand more energy to do so. The energy then is simply taking on another form or is being transferred.

The effect of this is momumental when you think that you can control what energy comes from you in every instance. Whether you absorb some energy to disipate the force of hate and return love, or match hate with hate or love with love is all up to you. Indeed as everything is. Life's lessons can be taught through sport even is you don't learn them while actually playing the sport. Always absorb what is useful and as always think about it.

My funeral

Simple enough

I want my funeral to be by invitation only, i really don't won't certain people around me in life or death, i won't be needing well wishers regardless of where i reside( i will leave the invitees in my will)

I want no chairs cause people have to party get some music and vibe accordingly. If you know me play from Bounty back to U2 just no techno please. So no organ or piano man, get me a hype DJ to drop some tunes or maybe sound clash to verses of scripture and let we see who win. Please oh please no one is to deliver the whole heaven or hell speech... how drab, didn't they know i read more than one book of scripture and my mind isn't under there control... especially now I'm dead... isn't this supposed to be about me? save souls another day i begg yuh.

Yes, yes dress code is in effect, don't bother with the 'keep yuh hot' ties nor the all black; my funeral should be a jeans only affair i mean cuh dear, if we was we no dressing up is necessary. i thinking something like 'glow' all white with neon lights.

Really lucky i don't charge admission too - fuck my life story who I've helped and all else that is good. At my funeral talk about whose heart i broke who i curse and who i don't like cause in life nobody ain't want to talk about these things.

So we gin keep it jiggy and vibe accordingly, cause verily what is there to be sad for... I owe you money :-) ?

Am I?

Have i become indifferent to death but not to pain - somebody going to soon or not is not so much a bad thing, not so much a cry till i can't breathe thing, just them transforming.

Ok, so the timing of their death may not suit you; but will it ever? least you are their murderer. Coast to coast we can't stand the martyr so why question the father again and again ... when one experience ends doesn't another one begin? But i guess this is death so what we've learnt in life can never apply. We must reset our tears to let them flow, reset our fears to fit in with what everyone else is doing.

I guess i really am indifferent to death, the contextual 'ultimate freedom' but not pain or the pain it creates in others. What a blessing to experience life and a painless death.

Welcome - I wonder

I wonder if in writing again i am writing the same thing
I wonder if in writing again i will help people with my words again
I wonder if i will evolve again
I wonder if actuality comes before potential
I wonder if it even makes sense to express myself cause i really wonder if anyone understands me

I wonder what will happen when i believe again
I wonder who can stop me
I wonder why i feel this power running through me
I wonder why you make me angry
I wonder why by and by there is no end to this

i do really love wondering i wonder why
still I'm sure that greater is now
and the construction of potential is done
My time will come!

Character and Integrity

It takes a competitor many matches in any endeavour before he gets a shot a the championship... having arrived at the championship it only takes one game to loose it all.

Much like sports like and our good name quickly can go down in flames by those who can't cast the first stone still this is how it is in our society. A man can build himself up genuinely for years to be ripped to shreds by a situation he failed to prepare for, then to add salt to the wounds of the wounded we parade around proudly and cry shame on you... How could you?, like we never ever did anything to damage another. There is no valor in the creation of character but much condemnation in its destruction.

The fact of the matter is that wrong can only exist in the context of right, no one can do all good and no one can do all bad. No one! Why? 'cause different people judge differently. So who do we adhere to, when the dark side calls and we answer; friends frown on us but we stay true to who we believe we are ... some parts good some parts bad to make a complete whole.

The untold story of the soul is cold, its story has many chapters.

Archery

I feel there is so much greatness within me that only dedication can free still due to my timidity I worry that all cannot be achieved simultaneously that is to say that to pursue my differences may remove my current similarities ... the change to a more pure me to me is scary.

Though not scary enough to curtail its pursuit moments of now fly by with me absolved in thought abject to what some would term reality.

Yet in writing this I am reminded of the divine abundance in the universe and I am confident in the fact that my passions merit my salvation and will be the most important aspect in my evolution and experience as a human being.

New

What is it about you 'new'?

that has everyone so into you?
you pop out of the wood work in the name of creativity
you sneak up on people without startling them
you make them smile and arouse curiosity ... people just can't get enough of you... and then they do... and then you're through!

No more compliments or being boasted about to friends, no more late nights or sacrifices logic can't comprehend. When 'new' is now no more the transition to 'what a bore' is complete.

Smiles turn to frowns, flowers wilt, tears run; soil becomes the river bed,

frequent communication becomes silence

time pays dividends true to the dichotomy of life
one minute up next minute down and i am powerless to make you come back around

My biggest fear 'new' is that you become old

'cause i like you 'new' you refresh me

even though i know you can't stay new

do you think you could make an exception for me?